10 years, 10 years of the new me.
Each year I would think how I would feel when it came to the 10th anniversary of my accident. Well it has come around so quickly….
I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t think about that night over and over again.
Every year I reflect and feel that I have made victories. Even if they are little. I mentally point out that I am lucky enough to see another year. I think back and remember the times when I couldn’t move anything at all and then I feel incredibly fortunate to have the movement I have now. I am a survivor, I’m a wife, and a mummy. I have done things in these past 10 years which I never thought I would be able to do. I have overcome so many hurdles, struggled, screamed and suffered. But when I have those good days, they are bloody amazing! With support through these years I have been able to rebuild my life, I have somehow figured out how to put myself back together through the daily pain of a spinal-cord injury. Today I do feel vulnerable but stronger then I was 10 years ago.
No matter how hard you try not to believe in reading the signs that the universe gives us, sometimes you just can’t ignore it. I have learnt that nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know.
I wholeheartedly believe that bad experiences and pain are here for one reason, and that is to grow from them. I never used to look at a rubbish situation and see it as an opportunity but now I find myself figuring out what I can create from this mess. With 10 years gone, I’m grateful to the things it has lead me to now. The universe gives you exactly what you want but the way in which you get it is nothing like you ever imagined.
The 5th of November 2011 was the ONE day where everything went wrong but somehow I’ve fought the million of negatives to find the positives. I’ll always have days where I want this suffering to go away but wallowing in my self pity can be so easy, Learning to handle what I’ve been through is more rewarding. And I’m getting there.
So here’s to 10 years, my new life.
MY RE-BIRTHDAY!!
10 bonus years of life and sunshine and happy memories that I am very lucky to have gotten.
Cheers to the miles it took me to get here🌸💗